This is What it Feels Like to be Led

There's a song I stumbled across a month or two ago called "What it Feels Like" by FFH. Here are the lyrics:

So this is what if feels like to walk the wilderness
and this is what if feels like to come undone
So this is what if feels like to loose my confidence
unsure of anything or anyone
So this is what if feels like to walk the desert sand
and this is what if feels like to hear my name
and to be scared to death cause I'm all alone
but feel love and peace just the same
And this may not be the road I would choose for me
but it still feels right somehow
And I have never felt you as close to me as I do right now
So this is what if feels like to be led
So this is what if feels like to have it fall apart
to be totally unglued
and find out if I accept my brokenness
I get more of me, I get all of you
If this is what if feels like to be on shaky ground
Careful of every step I take
Realizing as I stop to look around
I look around and see everything a different way
and this may not be the road I would choose for me
but it still feels right somehow
cause I have never felt you as close to me as I do right now
So this is what if feels like to be led
and this is what if feels like to be led
So this is what if feels like to just walk away
from everything I thought kept me safe
to depend just on you for every meal
and find it's better this way
oh it's better this way
And this may not be the road I would choose for me
but it still feels right somehow
And I have never felt you as close to me as I do right now
like i do right now

I love this song because it speaks to the paradox I've been living these past months, well really, these past years, on the one hand feeling completely out of control and on the other, feeling so secure in the Lord. Being led is tough, it sound easy at first, but think about it for a minute. When you're being led somewhere, you aren't in control. You don't necessarily even know where it is you're going or how you're going to get there if you happen to be lucky enough to know the end goal of the road. For me, these past months have been like walking around in a pitch black room. But at the same time, I've felt such security in knowing that I am letting the Lord lead me, in His calling. Its a tricky thing, being led. But there's no where else I'd rather be than here, even if I don't know where here is.